u/Ailitsa

In 2024 i was at my lowest. I wanted to get better and fought hard, got to the hospital for 3 months and recovered. It was hard but, i fought the trauma that lead to my anorexia.

I was doing better for 2 years. Yeah, i still had intrusive thoughts but... I was recovering for real. I reached a healthy weight and all...

But i'm relapsing and i don't even know WHY. I don't understand. But i can't stop it.

I almost died last time i don't want to die. But every relapse it's getting worse. I'm scared because last time at least i knew what to fight, my traumas, but this time i don't even know the cause so i don't know what to fight.