I messed up truly
I truly messed up. I had something I’ve always wanted. It wasn’t perfect, but it was ours, and I didn’t take care of it the way I should have. I felt like I couldn’t give him everything, even though he gave me so much.
Seeing him today made everything feel real. It honestly felt like it might be the last time I see him, and that hurt more than anything. I take full responsibility for what I did. I wasn’t loyal. It started with entertaining people in my DMs, then turned into texting, and eventually things he saw that I shouldn’t have allowed at all. What we had felt natural and real. It wasn’t forced or from an app it just happened, and that’s rare. That’s part of why this hurts so much. He gave me so much, and I turned around and hurt him. I m not trying to play the victim. I know I caused this. I just wish I handled things differently. I do care about him, and I hate that I messed up something that meant so much to me. I know he wasn’t perfect, but neither am I.
I also know I need to work on myself. I don’t fully have everything figured out yet, but I want to be better and not repeat the same mistakes.
Just need some advice