For as long as I remember, in basically any friend group, I was always the most unattractive one. And honestly, its terrible.
Basically thorughout high school and now during college, it feels like all my friends who are, unlike me actually attractive, get to have women actually reciprocate interest and enjoy dating and having a, seemingly normal dating life.
Meanwhile, I have never had that kind of experience. For the record, I am a 21 year old, still in college who is pretty short, have a skinny-fat build and have a very unappealing face imo.
Every time I have approached someone in a social setting, I was met with basically instant rejection every single time. It is so shitty to effectively have to sit on the sidelines all the time while other people you are hanging out with get to experience this things...
And also it isn't like I haven't been trying to self-improve, but man after 2 years, while it has gotten me quite far in some places (I can bench 100kg finally and have also landed a very good internship which is likey to turn in to a full time job after I finish college), I feel like I still can't even begin to capture anyone's interest and still feel painfully inferior to my more attractive friends. Basically I have more or less molded my life around getting into shape and improving in terms of my career.
Also, I seem to be getting ever more bitter as time goes on, since it frankly feels so unfair that these guys basically got to be ''good enough'' ever since high school, meanwhile I am still nowhere near that level despite all the effort and time I have been putting in.
Honestly it all is just so unfair and feels like utter shit sometimes...