hello all.
today, my baby girl mango has passed away. she had an egg that has attached to her egg duct, and caused her to bleed internally.
i am beyond gutted. mango was my very first baby bird, and i feel like a part of me died with her. the worst part of this is the fact that she died while i was at work. she had entered surgery, went under Anastasia, and within seconds she passed away. this was all while i was at work. i couldn’t say goodbye. i couldn’t tell her i love her with all of my being. and i feel like the worst bird mama ever.
my only peace of mind is at least she passed in a sleep, and not bleeding out and awake.
mango had apparently been bleeding internally for a few days before this point, and the fact she did not die sooner is because of her health and her love for me, at least that’s what the vet said.
i miss her so so much, and i can’t stop shaking. i’m so sad and empty.
i am reaching out to seek any advice or guidance on how i can overcome this. i have 2 other birds that are in my flock, and they need me. i want to stay upbeat for them, but right now i just don’t know what to do.
thank you to all who have read this.