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sweet sounds of rains pitter patter upon the glass
adorning my ears with memories of past
feminine wrath, soft skin and laughs

i witnessed a miracle today

you came to me
wide-eyed and flaming
i put my hands onto a heart in need of saving-
a mind in need of taming
no more disguises

for a second i got to be useful again
i got to be your friend
nostalgia set in
i still remember

my great dane-my protector
you slept on my floor to keep us sane
naive to what was coming
how everything would change

now it’s my turn
i put you to sleep and i lock your crate
i close my eyes, and it burns
my teeth begin to shake

sweet sounds of rains pitter patter upon the glass
adorning my ears with memories of past
feminine wrath, soft skin and laughs

i witnessed a miracle today

you came to me
wide-eyed and flaming
i put my hands onto a heart in need of saving-
a mind in need of taming
no more disguises

for a second i got to be useful again
i got to be your friend
nostalgia set in
i still remember

my great dane-my protector
you sleep on my floor to keep us sane
naive to what was coming
how everything would change

now it’s my turn
i put you to sleep and i lock your crate
i close my eyes, and it burns
my teeth begin to shake

you invited me into your home
i resisted
but you insisted
you surprised me on the phone
a forward type of direction
i’ve never really known
and besides
i really hate being alone
come inside

the perfect gentleman
one thing lead to another
river runs through
what else is there to do
was it so out of hand?

did i make a mistake?
i’m not really doing the best i can
maybe it was too soon
maybe it was something in the air or your hair or your care

was this a one time thing?

God please not another mindless fling

i actually think i could really like you
i liked you enough, clearly
i liked feeling you near me
i liked you feeding me
i liked my hand over your heart
i liked its beating
one thing you’ll come to find about me
is i’m incredibly needy
please not again
if you’re gonna say it
do it sweetly

the look on his face

bitter betrayal

white socks and lace

pulling teeth

pain on a scale

ill fitting mistakes

birthday cake

paying your bail

that one rainy day

“GET DOWN”

screaming to no avail

ketamine karaoke

the way you choked me

wash around the clock

your hands on my waist

i never wanted you to stop

promise this time you’ll know what it takes

for us

it’s never too late

just like my kitty

black and sleek

katie baby.

rabid—

but not mangy.

salty

but not angry

sweet and savory

i have my shots

immune to you.

my limbs grow weak

i’m tired

but i can’t sleep

i cannot stand

the realization of losing you

my sweet boo.

my chest is on fire.

filled with lost and found

desire.

schizzy tendencies

poison for a remedy

dizzy with remembering

pay no attention to me.

my hive mind.

i’m blind.

fragrant flowers

fill my vacant eyes

“you’re mine”

my dad’s a beekeeper too

you know…

they sure don’t make ovens like they used to.

i think i might be….

you know…

you don’t just move me 

you move into me-

your energy 

schizoid tendencies 

remember me 

when 

palpable potential 

travels up through your icy nose 

blow it out-make a wish 

and it burns

down through to your curling toes 

fizzling doubt-your favorite dish

bubbles out

your 

frothy/foaming 

mouth 

and then you’re left

only one egress—

yearning prose. 

weight builds and breaks

no more mistakes

who’s who

what’s what

meticulous intake

my fake achy bones quake

earth shakes; shatters around me

surrounds me in displaced pain

i’m an a invalid; no one to mary-

nothing to gain

i don’t like to say hate

in the business of forgiveness-

all of me to take

for you-for this

all i do is wait

where are you?

it’s hard for me

pretending you’re not mine

like everything is fine

remember

mouth to finger

when you loved to see?

feminine divine

lips kissed with wine

you’re just like me

a mirror to thee!

idiotic

sexy

neurotic

fill me

feel me

i love being you

the way you speak

something im endlessly into

my male epitome

come through-i’ll leak. baby i’m weak.

it’s true-

but see what else this bunny can do

hips and hops

tummy drops

tension stops

God why does it have to be you

anyone else i dread

with you

tension fed

fears shed

all within your bed

without you im nothing.

just dead nothing dread filled with hungry lingering sick sad

oops i forgot. it’s a secret.

that’s my bad.