u/Agile_Breadfruit5772

I have not found anyone else on the internet discuss this theme. I am in my early 20s, have never had much of a sex life and it is because I am so so afraid that it will “taint” me. I think this started when I discovered the Madonna whore complex around age 17. that a man cannot love a promiscuous woman. im not religious or anything, nothing else in my environment has triggered me to be this way. I feel an excessive need to declare my sexual purity. I come across a pick me but I can’t help it. all I’ve ever wanted is to have a boyfriend and be loved. I feel like it’s also based on male validation. i know it’s pathetic. but can anyone else relate