So my story goes like this
I have been a stutterer my entire life
Literally from grade 1. I used to stutter whenever my teachers ask my name. I used to feel bad. Even at my home, they used to pity for me. I tried so so much to overcome it but I never did. Eventually it resolved when I reached my high school. My parents were the one who noticed it first and they were really happy about it. I thought that it ended , finally. I entered my college and then, it is back.
Just back in my first year, when my professor asked my name, I was standing there, unable to say my name. I wanted to say but I couldn’t. It was so bad, infront of my batch of 250 students. They started to ask if I forgot my name, if I was high and started laughing. I laughed it off but deep inside I was hurt so bad. Then things kept getting worse and I had to do so much of talking since I am in med school. Case presentation went bad infront of my class. I remember one presentation where it went like,
“ patient had complaints of bilateral lower limb s……”
“S…….”
Professor - “ patient will have bilateral lower limb only, what is the complaints, have you come prepared?”
The most horrible day, started to sweat. Lost my hopes for living.
Then turned up to a psychiatrist and got diagnosed as ANXIETY INDUCED STUTTERING
Underwent relaxation exercises but didn’t work out.
Just because of this, I was unable to say my name and used my second name everywhere , got low grades.
Somehow finished my med school and had gone on a solo trip to the Philippines
During my travel, I don’t remember clearly well , maybe during immigration when they had asked my name , I said it fluently. Without getting stuttered. For the first time. I was not conscious that I would stutter but I just said it !!
And every place , I said my name, kept on saying to strangers and when I am back to india , when they asked my name, I said, “Aadi”.