u/AggravatingWeb4911

So for context I have some major family and social issues. Everyone seems to hate me, my dad was severely physically and emotionally abuse to me and my mom to the point where I feared for my life. My mom constantly bags on me and tells me my trauma surrounding my SA isn't valid and that it didn't happen and that im trying to guilt trip her. My grandmother talks shit about me to the family and so does a lot of other people. I struggle socially, ever since late elementary school I've struggled making friends despite my birth chart. It feels like bad things constantly happen to me, and deep down inside I know when I cut my family off life will become 10000x times better but im just so tired already. Im also very scared for my career life and have fears about failing or not succeeding. Please anyone give some advice, im severely suicidal and depressed.