u/AggravatingEffect937

This is kind of a rant and it’s emotional and serious. I’m a brown guy. And like the son of all Indian parents, it’s usually a stem degree. For me electrical engineering. My mom says I can’t do marching band. She says these next years are critical to getting a good degree and making a good living. She says sacrifices have to be made and I understand her. But no band? I love band with all my heart. It’s given me friends, memories, something fun to do. It’s my reason for living honestly. My mom says that she knows me and that I can’t multitask, i procrastinate like crazy, and I have not made any sacrifices in high school. And my mom is right. I have tutors, and honestly I’ve just been skating by. I mean my grade are decent and what not, but without tutors I’d be drowning and failing. I tried telling her that other stem majors are also in the marching band. Engineering, premed, but she said that she knows my limits. That I won’t be able to do it. And honestly I think she’s right. I do procrastinate, I have been skating by in hs, and I have horrible time management. I want to prove her wrong but I don’t know how. I’m afraid my college experience will just be horrible. Just school, and sleep. Back to back. I don’t want that. I want to live. I want to prove her wrong. I have one last summer. She said there’s nothing I can do to prove her wrong. But I want to. I love band with all my heart. It’s my reason for living. Does anyone have and advice, encouraging words, just anything? I want to prove to her that I can do it. I’m just so scared that I’m gonna be the chud that does to class and only does that. No clubs, or anything. Just cruel and endless class. I’m even more afraid that I’m gonna grow old and bitter because I never enjoyed life in college and that I never got to march.