I’m having a hard time telling if I’m hypomanic or depressive or both
I’m 23 and I’ve been diagnosed since I was 18. I normally only experience depression but if my lifestyle routine changes dramatically or big life events happen, it can trigger hypomania. Recently I’ve been incredibly stressed about going back to undergrad as I took a leave of absence because I was burnt out and failing and I also have to move very soon and unfortunately I don’t have a lot of support and emotional connections with people where I live so I’ve been feeling extremely lonely and depressed when I’m alone and especially at night.
But when Im around other people im very talkative and social and sometimes I overshare a lot or have the urge to be flirtatious and impulsive which is how I’ve been able to spot hypomanic episodes before. I also will assume the worst case scenario and I feel constantly anxious that something bad is going to happen to my family, my friends, my relationship, and just in general. I’ll have really big emotional reactions to things and later realize that it wasn’t that deep and I normally wouldn’t act that way. My sleeping is really disordered, I’ll sleep for like 2 hours and then stay up for an hour and then get 2-3 more hours of sleep.
Idk I know no one can tell me what’s going on based on a Reddit post but I guess I just wanted to know if there’s other people that struggle with being able to tell where they’re at mentally. I’ve had this diagnosis for 5 years and I still feel like I can’t understand it.