I managed to fail to meet every single deadline this year cause of my physical and mental health being so bad.
It feels unfair that I don't get a second chance cause of something I can't control , instead i get called lazy and dramatic for it even if I thought I was dying during those times and had completely given up on going outside for a while cause of my health getting worse .
Now I'll just be known as the failure who couldn't get his shit together this year, even if all odds were stacked against me and there was no possible way for me to have salvaged this.
Was I supposed to still work on the deadline stuff even when I was barely able to keep my eyes open and focus on what I was doing? When I was barely able to eat and drink ..or do any basic task like standing up?
It feels so unfair , I just keep getting worse and worse and there's never any accommodation for someone who misses the train , I just want a break from this guilt and shame of failing.