u/Affectionate_Bad_632

I (22F) have absolutely hit the rockiest of rock bottoms and idk how I’ll get back from it. I’ve lost my job, my car, my friends, my gf, and lowk my will to live. I am struggling to pay my rent I have zero clue where I’m meant to live in 3 months from now when my lease is up. I am 2,000 miles away from my home and I have no support system. And to add on top of all of this (FROM THIS POINT I DO MENTION SEXUAL ASSULT) I was sexually assaulted last weekend at a bar. Things keep happening to me and i genuinely want to know what I did to deserve all these bad things because I try so hard to do good to others and be a good person to my friends and I just absolutely don’t recognize myself. I’m in therapy and on meds but for fucks sake NOTHING IS WORKING!!!! No amount of working through or upping my dosage is helping anything get better. I’ve genuinely lost any and all joys I once had for my life. I paused going to school for teaching because how am I meant to be the best for my students when I absolutely hate myself and can’t even take care of basic things like showering and making myself a meal? Idk what I’m doing any more and I just needed a place to dump this, thanks for reading if you did <3