Double dropper. desperately need help ( Please don't ignore)
Hey guys
idk how to go about this - I gave clat 2026 and to say it didn't go well would be an understatement because i ended up with an air 12,000.
I've always was never able to get very good grades because of the fact that i honestly used to lack discipline. i got low 80s in 10th and 12th, couldn't get through clat and also couldn't do Mhcet 5 years well. I am just....such a bucket of failure and even though i've started studying sincerely, the despair won't go away. My home life is extremely turbulent and all i want is to go to a T1 NLU next year and leave this place
I just don't know what to say... My mental health has reached an absolute all time low. I've started getting such dark, painful thoughts and have basically zero emotional support system at home. I've even started considering self harming again. This sub is always some how the one place that motivates me to keep going because of the personal stories that a lot of you share.
Plus I have all these questions like Are double droppers discriminated or treated differently socially? and.. even philosophically" if i get a good rank this time, will my previous failures still be relevant?