hi guys, hope i don’t face any judgement for this.
i’ve basically obtained 1 A, 3 Bs, 2 Cs, 1 D and 1 E in my o levels. this makes my equivalence come up to 67.5%. i have not given the SAT. as for my a levels, i’m not sure at all. my best case scenario would be BCD and worst case scenario would be DDE.
unfortunately, i know i cannot defend this or justify it. but i just feel like dumping this somewhere. all my life, i’ve been unsure of what to do. got dragged to pure sciences in o and a levels, which i didn’t even know if i had any interest in. it honestly makes me so sad; seeing how people have their lives all set - applying to medicine, top unis and even abroad. feels like i just got left behind, stuck in a bubble.
gap year is not even an option for me, as i know my life will become hell if i consider that. i do sometimes regret not giving it my all to Cambridge, but it has just made 5 years of my life so damn depressing. i’ve just been escaping studying for as long as i could remember. now, all i want is to do something securing and become independent. im ready for a new chapter in my life and im actually willing to strive. i feel like i don’t have much options considering my grades. although, if anyone has any better suggestions or ideas for what i could do, i’d be so grateful.
anyways, certainly drifted from the narrative. would be glad if someone could let me know honestly!
PSA: i know that my grades suck. i know, i didn’t try at all. but remember, you don’t know me. these are just barely 200 words explaining my situation. you don’t know my life or what i’ve been through in these 5 years. kindness or staying quiet doesn’t cost anything :)