u/Affectionate-Rice-42

I'm 28 (Male). I am a non-denominational christian. Saved but not Baptized( I want to be). I am addicted to porn. I used to watch every day several times a day. I have prayed and repented for over a month, but I am still struggling with this. I have prayed for Jesus to give me strength to resist the temptation and to help me focus on studying God's word instead of giving into the temptation. It has worked for me, but at times, I feel so lonely, and all I want in life is a christian wife and a family. I have had two long-term relationships, and both lasted over 4 years, but both women rejected my marriage proposals because I am disabled and I'm not a good provider... Do any of my brothers and sisters have any advice for me? And will I be condemned for my sin even though I repent?