Late in the evening I always looking for a reason to worry and always find it
Something minor happens that day or even days before, I live my day relatively normally, doing my stuff. Evening happens, I have relatively free time. And I spend all that just to vaguely worry or wait for something. I will not let myself go to sleep.
Like today I ordered laptop via mail forwarding and there is decent chance that they will cancel the order, they asked for additional info. I provided it and wait for their decision, and it's 3 am. Or that doctor was slightly mean to me today.
I feel like I have to "process" it in such a wasteful manner, mostly being stuck in social media, and I can't turn it off. The act of withdrawal from that coping already makes me uncomfortable.
I'm trying journalling, but in the evening it's not effective for some reason. I have to live through it for some reason.