Similar to dark skinned black women in the black community, I feel like gay black men who bottom are seen as the least desired. Black tops don't seem to have this problem because of the BBC fetish.
I've been starving myself ever since I hooked up with this hot bartender on Friday night. I feel like becoming skinnier will enhance my appearance and make it easier to cope just in case this guy isn't that into me. He really rocked my world. He made love to me like I was his wife. I'm a black bottom with a beer belly and he is a white top with a nice masculine built so an encounter like this is once in a lifetime. I want to see him again, but I'm terrified that he might not be that into me. That is what makes me want to drastically change myself. I don't want to be plain old me anymore when I'm attracting guys I never thought I could attract. Anybody else can relate?