u/AeroInu

I’ve been homeschooled for nearly my entire life after my mom pulled me from private school because my teacher was severely physically and psychologically abusing me in the 1st grade. Because of that abuse I had shut down mentally from learning and instead of my parents taking me to therapy, they just gave up after a handful of attempts and I got 0 education for my entire childhood outside of co-ops, and the 2 years my parents had me in public school when we lived in Europe. I never had friends growing up outside of church, I have extremely poor school habits now that I’m starting college, and I’m having to go into University as a freshman when I’m 22 in a few years because I am having to completely redo my education with community college remedial classes. I don’t want to hate my parents for this because I love them but I find myself being extremely bitter at how they gave up on me because of my trauma, and they blame me for it like a six to eleven year old me was responsible for my education. Now besides my stunted math and English skills I think my worst issues are social ones. I find myself hating interacting with people similar to an unsocialized dog and I don’t know why. I love the concept of friends but I guess I’m so used to being isolated that having other people around makes me nervous. I’m thinking of going to therapy even though my religious mom is against it and I hope I can try to repair my mental damage but to be honest I wouldn’t be surprised if it's permanent.