Can anyone please help me figure out my Ishtha Devi/Devata. I have been into some Mahavidya Sādhanas through Upadesham of certain Sadhakas. I have always had a pull towards Ugra Devis and Devas, like Maa Tara, Maa Matangi, Maa Kali, Narasimha, Skanda and had dream experiences around them. I need a stable focus in my spiritual journey and I'm in a state of confusion. Please help!
I do nitya upasana of Bhairava. I have had a strong pull towards Narasimha since I was a kid.
Recently I had a dream where I was told the beej akshar of Narasimha Swami — "Kshraum"(someone repeating this beeja 2-3 times infront of a black idol of Skanda).
I am new to any form of Vaishnav Sadhana, I am Non-vegetarian by lifestyle, and I am into certain physical activities that demand more than regular protein.
Can I start with any kind of Mantra Jaap for Narasimha for nitya Upasana?