I want to start off my saying I dont know if this is the correct place to post this so if you know of a better place do let me know.
I've (24F, 162cm, 93KG) been working closely with a dietitian for the last 2 months after getting off weight loss med and she specialises in disordered eating. I was 105kg and went down to 82kg on weightloss med but after realising I had an unhealthy eating habits and thoughts around food I decided to get off the medication and focus on healing my relationship with food. I want to note that I've been lifting for 7 years consistently and tried to keep my step count high. Back in january i moved home and fell into a depression and turned to food for comfort and went up to 90kg 2 months ago i decided to see a dietitian and have been following her plan, the focus is to fix my eating habits, not binge and supposedly also lose fat.
Im happy to say that i am seeing positive changes with my eating habits however i feel like im gaining weight. I try to hit 7-10k steps daily i lift 3-4x a week and she says im making good progress. I did my last check while pmsing and though my fat % is the same my scale weight has gone up 2 kilos. I feel a bit disappointed and i know its normal to gain a little water weight while pmsing i just feel a bit out of control and im trying to give myself grace and not punish myself but i just feel like a failure. I'm trying to lower my fat % (which sits at 44% now down to 30-35%) for my health. I feel like i dont have a realistic timeline of how much i should lose by x amount of time because i keep comparing myself to people who are losing big amounts in short periods of time.
Sorry this post is all over the place I just would appreciate any motivations and stories from people who experience some of the same feelings etc. I am determined to push through mainly for my health but i just feel a little low i guess.
Any input is appreciated!