hi everyone ! so i passed ustet and i plan to go to UST cuz i got accepted into my prio program (ChE). i know this might be a stupid question but can i really learn to love a university that my heart never really calls out for?
For some reason, i can’t seem to bring myself to reserve my slot nor decline UP’s offer (i got accepted to MatE in elbi - not my prio program). I love the environment in elbi and my friend is going to uplb also, but everything else just isn’t favorable that is, shifting to ChE and the hellish enlistment system. UST campus is so pretty and I’ve been there for both ustet college and ustet shs but it never felt like the “i belong here/This is where I’m supposed to be” revelation that people have, so didnt mind when i didnt pass ustet the first time around for shs but everything else is so much more favorable for college so it feels like all roads lead to UST.
My biggest fear really is fitting in. I went through hell first few months in Mapua shs, it was so hard for me to make friends esp as a big time introvert. That being said, I see on tiktoks that a lot of students in UST are also from UST SHS so they already know each other, so i’m really scared if i’ll ever find friends. Plus the culture also, my sister tells me about her time in UST (the parties, the drinking etc) and i don’t drink nor do i plan on drinking so soon😭🙏 so i dont know kung kaya ko makisama. i also dont have insta so i cant connect w blockmates other than fb or msngr. Are there people like me here huhu😞😞 Do you guys think UST is for me or should i take the risk in UPLB?