u/Adventurous-Day-9292

I've taken Elite before. Ive taken the xr, in 5s, 10s, and 15s. I've taken the IR in 10s. I havent taken the IR since 2024, however. I did take the XR back in Jan, Feb, and March. I am spiraling since I got this batch right now. Every day I get worse. the IR feels identical to the XR as well, so its not like I can just try only one of them and forgo the other (odd, i have never had xr and ir of the same brand feel identical and i've been taking meds for 10ish years or so).

my symptoms are: horrifically blank mind, frozen mind and body, depressed and overly analytical about looking or sounding quiet, depressed, or awkward, flushed skin. when I say blank mind, I mean it's like there is NOTHING up there - no thoughts, no feelings, no emotion. I'm depressed, but its only because of such severe anhedonia. I feel painfully out of place even in my own home and family, because I know I am acting strange. I wake up feeling no better honestly than the previous day. I can't get myself to care about anything. I'm not sleepy or foggy, like effects that have happened with other bad batches of meds. If anything, i am too awake and painfully hyperaware of everything, but not in a "stimulant" kind of way. I feel like I've had a lobotomy. I can't think of anything to say to anybody and I have a commission sales job on the phone. I cant speak to my family, friends, co workers. This is truly terrifying.

I dont ever remember this happening with Elite. I have gotten blank mind on teva before, but it was nowhere near this bad and was always accompanied by fatigue. I did switch to a new independent pharmacy, but they are licensed and in good standing with the pharmacy board of ca. I feel so awkward I have not spoken a word to my family in almost two days. What the heck is going on??

I cant believe I was actually excited to get this stuff. I remember it working, and I have seen more positive reviews on it than negative.

Well, I guess I can understand why some people like it, it does not make me sleepy or tired or foggy. But it feels like a pure ADRENALINE pill. I feel short-fused, blunted, and not myself. I cant tap into any empathy, compassion, intelligent conversation, etc. All my conversations at work and with family/friends feel extremely awkward.

I can't say my focus or engagement is better, it literally just feels like a stimulant with zero cognitive effect aside from wakefulness. So far, the only adderall that has worked as intended for me the last few months has been Camber XR, of which I only tried two pills from from a friend. It felt like brand used to feel years and years and years ago. I am going to ask my pharmacist if he can order it next month, but if that doesn't work then I'm done. I have an rx for both xr and ir, but cannot find an IR i tolerate except a couple batches of sandoz here and there. the xr i also have is from elite and it feels the same but worse almost.

Last month I had teva ir and mallinkrodt xr, and they made me depressed and tired. Why cant any of them actually work? Are my only options depressed/tired or amped up and on edge?