Is it possible for anhedonia to be a direct result or symptom of Long COVID, rather than just stemming from a psychiatric condition like depression?
I’m at the end of my fucking rope. I’ve been sober for 6 years now, but since I quit, I’ve been living in total anhedonia. I feel absolutely nothing. No drive for money, no interest in sex or relationships, no joy in career wins zero. Even when good things happen, I feel 0% pleasure. It’s like I’m a goddamn robot; I don’t laugh, I don’t cry, I’m just 'there.'
For 6 years, I’ve cycled through every psychiatrist and every possible med—antidepressants, antipsychotics, supplements—you name it, I’ve spent years on it. Nothing worked. I’ve stopped everything now because what’s the point?
Here’s the fucked up part: When I cave and have a drink - maybe once every month or two—I feel human again. My brain turns back on. I can talk to friends, enjoy music, and actually feel alive. Is this my life now? Am I stuck choosing between being a sober vegetable or a functioning alcoholic? I just want to be a normal human being. Doctors have failed me. I need real solutions.