Like honestly I just feel gross. I grew up with serious constipation issues and it wasn’t managed very well. I had accidents a lot and never wanted to use the restroom as a child because of how painful it was.
I am a lot better now, I use the restroom more regularly, but it is really really hard to sometimes, it’s like my muscles are all messed up or are super weak. When I do use the restroom, it always feels like I still need to go, but I can’t because i’m worn out. Also, when I finish using the restroom I find myself leaking and it’s terrible I have to change out my clothes all the time and bathe constantly or else i’m just gross. My period makes everything EVEN worse too.
I literally can’t get close with any guy romantically without feeling disgusting and unworthy of being with someone. Who would want to be with anyone that’s always gross. If anyone has advice to fix this problem I would really really appreciate it. 😞