Is there a reason my friends always betray me with men or get weird with me?? Also why it’s hard from me to genuinely like someone like i like one person once every 2 years and if they don’t like me back i probably just say dream about them. Also my life is literally like a movie 🤣🤣🤣 can someone tell me what they see in my chart?
So I met this guy on Instagram—he DM’d me, and something about him immediately felt different.
Usually, I don’t get invested easily. A lot of “my type” of guys DM me, and I either don’t respond or it just fizzles out. I prefer meeting people in person anyway. But with him…it was different. He’s from London, and the moment I saw his face, I don’t even know how to explain it—I just felt drawn in. I responded almost instantly, which is very unlike me.
We talked a bit, and then ended up meeting in person in June when he came to the U.S. I went into it with low expectations. I thought he might be a little stuck-up or emotionally unavailable—he’s a few years younger than me and very well-off, so I didn’t expect much depth.
But when we met, he was the opposite. He opened up to me really quickly and was surprisingly vulnerable. We talked for about two hours straight, and it just felt…easy. Natural.
What stuck with me the most was the eye contact. I could barely hold his gaze for long, but he wouldn’t stop looking into my eyes. It felt intense in a way I’m not used to.
We planned to see each other again, but it didn’t end up happening. He went back to London (and now lives in Germany), and since then, we’ve talked on and off—sometimes months apart, sometimes randomly.
There’s also this weird detail: I’m almost certain he made a fake Instagram account to watch my stories. I blocked his main account at one point just to test something, and that fake account immediately stopped viewing my stories too. After that, it disappeared completely. So part of me feels like he does care…he just doesn’t act on it.
That’s kind of the dynamic—it’s like something is there, but nothing really moves forward. Logistically, it’s complicated too since we live in different countries.
The thing is, I have other options. Guys who are “better on paper,” who actively pursue me. But I think about him every single day. I’ve actively tried to let this go, and I just…can’t.
What confuses me even more is that my friends don’t even see what I see. They don’t think he’s that attractive. But to me, he’s incredibly beautiful—like, everything about him. Even his “flaws” feel perfect to me. I wouldn’t change anything.
And it’s deeper than just attraction. I feel this strong urge to care for him, protect him, build a life with him. It sounds crazy, but I can genuinely picture a future—marriage, family, everything. It feels like I know him on some level, even though logically, I don’t.
So I guess what I’m asking is:
Why am I this attached?
Why can’t I let this go, even when I’m trying to?
Is this kind of connection actually meaningful, or is it just projection/obsession? Does he feel the same at all? Could it be sustainable
(Synastry chart attached)