Another sem is about to start in a week and enrollment season na. I’m debating once again about whether or not to continue dentistry or stop.
I am an upcoming 6th year irregular dentist student na one subject nalang kulang to start clinics. I am already 2 years behind. SUPER BEHIND na. and wala pa yung clinics. I don’t know anyone who is in the same situation as I am. And it is exhausting to fight the urge to drop this program. Maybe I am just pushing myself too hard to be in a program I probably shouldn’t be in anymore. Maybe this is God telling me to stop.
As much as I fight the thoughts of quitting, it still infiltrates my brain because even though I know na we have different pace in life, I can’t help but compare myself to my peers. While they are already thriving and having their white coat ceremony and having clinics (I am super happy for them don’t get me wrong), but here I am still completing my subjects.
Truth is, the feeling of being behind really impaired my love for dentistry. I feel so off thinking about becoming a dentist now. Last sems, I was so sure I wanted to become one and now I don’t know.
And honestly, if i quit. I don’t know which path I will take. I’ve always only thought about being a dentist until this hindrance happened.
I am so lost and alone.