I don’t know if I want help or just want to write something. Turning 30 in three weeks and have gambled 12 years. Mostly sport betting. Started in 2014 when I just turned 18 and some random ad offer me 10€ for betting for 2014 Fifa World cup.
I have multiple loans ofcourse (have to pay around 1000 per month) and have scammed people several time over those years to get money and even in this month.
Today I won 900€ from only 30€. Wanted to take that money out which is huge amount for me and then I saw that withdrawal are “under maintenance”. It has happened before too. So I made couple of more bets to take out 1000 then and in one hour I lost that 900 completely. I don’t really understand or can’t even imagine how big money that 900€ is. When I am constantly betting until I lose it.
Only birthday present I need is to stop gambling completely although after 12 years it’s difficult. But I already wasted so many years to gambling. I can maybe get own apartment in the distant future but I don’t believe I will have my own family, wife and children someday. I don’t even have friends, lost all of them.
I have to wait my next paycheque which will be in two days, then pay back to people I asked money this month, pay my loan payments and don’t waste any money to gambling.