u/Admiral_Tofu2026

I just cant tolerate it. I cant. Im at my wits end. Any helpful hints welcome.

FTM here.

Some background: I have pmdd, not breatsfeeding, pre ecplamsia survivior, and recovering from pmeumonia. Been hospitalized 2 times since having my baby. My baby was in the NICU for 1 week as well. From what Ive been told, this is a recipe for PPD.

Im drowning. Drowning in a pool of my own misery. I thought it was pmdd, but it happens even after my period. I feel disconnected, like I want to run away and leave my husband and baby behind. I love them both, but when I feel this way I feel numb to that love. I know this is only temporary, but its so damn hard. What was your guys' clue you had ppd and what helped you the most to cope? I want to be the best version of myself for them both, they deserve better.