My girl recently broke up with me. Rightfully so. I was messed up, I was afraid of falling in love again and did everything to destroy it.
She was awesome and a truly beautiful human being, but I couldn’t get over the fact she had 11 in bc and went down on a guy at a party.
Although I genuinely loved HER, I let my pride destroy it.
I got pissed at the fact that she let guys sleep with her in a one night stand while I frequently had to wait and just have sex with her sometimes, when she felt like it. I’m 22 and she was 21. Usually people in our age have sex more often? I figured.
She also frequently wanted me to go down on her, even though I expressed that I truly hate it. I feel disgusting and have trouble eating for days after (idk why). She was always dissatisfied and disappointed that I never pleasured her in that sense. Which made the fact that she went down on a guy and didn’t receive nor expect anything back from him even more painful for me.
However, she genuinely was amazing. Always wanted to hear me out, adapt to my ways of doing things (going to sleep late etc). We hade a lot of the same humor and lots of fun.
I got to meet her family and I loved them.
But I fucked up. Because of my pride