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TLDR: what are some things to keep me from binging from stress, or ways to keep full, or just general tips that could help me drop weight 145 pounds 5"4 F

Hi, excuse the long post, im desperate! I dont really post but recently I've noticed how I actually look in pictures, and despite all my self confidence I've realized how weight blind I am. I was just wondering what I could possibly do to lose weight? I dislike the way I look and know I can do it if I have direction!

For context: I walk to school, so 1-2 miles a day, usually hitting 6k steps, and work a step heavy job on the weekend (6-11k steps in 4 hours). I weigh around 145 pounds on average and used to be able to get it down to 143 but now its just so hard. I have food issues so can't really eat vegetables, and my food aversions leave me little to eat at home other than junk. I can eat most any meats but all we usually have is airfryable chicken, tuna, and deli ham. We have some protein stuff like powders and granola bars but not a real meals worth. I am an active student (volunteering, clubs, working, dual enrollment, AP) so I can't do much exercise because of how exhausted I am after relieving my academic duties.

Food Habits: I have morning nausea so don't eat breakfast until like 9 in class where I have maybe a protein bar and some apple sauce. Lunch is always random, sometimes a ham sandwich, sometimes junk because im too exhausted to make stuff in the morning before my walk. Sometimes ill have a snack sometime after lunch either applesauce or another protein bar (the applesauce is the little gogo squeeze things) and then when I get home is when the issues start. My mom never tells me what's for dinner or if I even get dinner (i dont some nights) so either I binge as soon as I get home and then she makes dinner and I eat it, then at night snack on junk. Or I make a dinner and she makes another then I have to eat both. Or I just snack and she doesn't make anything so I snack more. I know this is my main issue but food is my comfort to save me from school stress and makes me feel better so I dont know how to stop. Usually on weekends I barely eat because I laze around in bed too lazy to make something.

In all I was just looking for suggestions or some things i can incorporate into my routine that will help me. Its hard to not eat because it physically pains me and my stomach grumbles so loud like its never eaten. I've considered replacing snacking with like 8 Oz diet sodas just to keep me full and drinking a lot of water. Counting calories doesn't work for me because it makes me want to eat more and tends to not have a real effect. Thanks for listening to my rant, I dont expect replies, im just lost and hate losing the battle to food

So im just gonna section this out because this probably will be half a rant, and me talking to the void, and then my actual point

Wants:

I want to befriend a guy in my age range 16-17. American preferably, because I dont like radically different time zones or language barriers. I would want someone open minded and emotionally intelligent, and not overly religious (like not to the point that if I say im agnostic you try to convert me). I feel selfish asking all of that but I might just stop talking to someone if they seem too childish or have their head in the wrong place. Sorry.

About me: outside of my background for posting, I do actually have hobbies and stuff. I love listening to music, if u message me please recommend me some music (and include age and an intro please). I play games like genshin, like to take photos and draw. I watch anime, read Manga, and love animals. I've been through a lot of stuff in my life and am an empath, so if you do reach out, I dont think it will be hard to connect.

Background : TLDR : life is lonely, this is a desperate last reach for social interaction

Im a high-school sophomore, AP classes and dual enrollment stuff, top courses kinda stuff. This means, I've been stuck with the same batch of maybe 100 kids my whole life since I was born and raised in my town. Throughout my schooling I've dated and expiremented, grew with time, yada yada, but one thing has never changed. I've never really had friends, in middle school I had this big group I still half associate with but we grew apart once high-school hit and I rarely talk to any of them unless in passing. Throughout it all I've had 1 best friend, and made one more last year, those 2 girls are my life, I love them. However, one is more a school friend as we never talk about anything not about school or clubs, the other has known me so long we have nothing new to talk about. This has left an ache in my chest for a long time, I've tried to fill the void of loneliness with social games, putting myself out there, and researching hours on end for sites where I dont have to post my face (it makes me uncomfortable), but with friendship apps orientated for teens, there are no good options. In just maybe 2 months max, I've asked 4 guys for their number, just to get to know them, and 3 have rejected me, the other ghosted me after not even a day. I met all these people in real life and anxiously worried all day just on how to approach them just to be let down again and again (no hate to them, it's just repetative). My 4th was yesterday, and I think that just kinda broke something in me, that no matter how much I try, even in person, nobody actually cares enough. I don't blame them but it hurts, im not ugly or mean or anything like that, just quiet. I used to have crippling anxiety online and in person, this is my first ever post anywhere actually. The more i try the worse everything feels tbh. Im probably gonna post this on a few subreddits but, in all, I just want to get to know a guy. For him not to immediately jump at the opportunity and try to date me,I want to be like actual friends, not someones fantasy.

So im just gonna section this out because this probably will be half a rant, and me talking to the void, and then my actual point

Wants:

I want to befriend a guy in my age range 16-17. American preferably, because I dont like radically different time zones or language barriers. I would want someone open minded and emotionally intelligent, and not overly religious (like not to the point that if I say im agnostic you try to convert me). I feel selfish asking all of that but I might just stop talking to someone if they seem too childish or have their head in the wrong place. Sorry.

About me: outside of my background for posting, I do actually have hobbies and stuff. I love listening to music, if u message me please recommend me some music (and include age and an intro please). I play games like genshin, like to take photos and draw. I watch anime, read Manga, and love animals. I've been through a lot of stuff in my life and am an empath, so if you do reach out, I dont think it will be hard to connect.

Background : TLDR : life is lonely, this is a desperate last reach for social interaction

Im a high-school sophomore, AP classes and dual enrollment stuff, top courses kinda stuff. This means, I've been stuck with the same batch of maybe 100 kids my whole life since I was born and raised in my town. Throughout my schooling I've dated and expiremented, grew with time, yada yada, but one thing has never changed. I've never really had friends, in middle school I had this big group I still half associate with but we grew apart once high-school hit and I rarely talk to any of them unless in passing. Throughout it all I've had 1 best friend, and made one more last year, those 2 girls are my life, I love them. However, one is more a school friend as we never talk about anything not about school or clubs, the other has known me so long we have nothing new to talk about. This has left an ache in my chest for a long time, I've tried to fill the void of loneliness with social games, putting myself out there, and researching hours on end for sites where I dont have to post my face (it makes me uncomfortable), but with friendship apps orientated for teens, there are no good options. In just maybe 2 months max, I've asked 4 guys for their number, just to get to know them, and 3 have rejected me, the other ghosted me after not even a day. I met all these people in real life and anxiously worried all day just on how to approach them just to be let down again and again (no hate to them, it's just repetative). My 4th was yesterday, and I think that just kinda broke something in me, that no matter how much I try, even in person, nobody actually cares enough. I don't blame them but it hurts, im not ugly or mean or anything like that, just quiet. I used to have crippling anxiety online and in person, this is my first ever post anywhere actually. The more i try the worse everything feels tbh. Im probably gonna post this on a few subreddits but, in all, I just want to get to know a guy. For him not to immediately jump at the opportunity and try to date me,I want to be like actual friends, not someones fantasy.