Sorry if this isn’t a big deal to vent about . Because I know so many people have it worst then me but I need to just let this all out .
I love my parents so so much and I love my life and I genuinely never could be happier.I love my cats and my dogs , I love my friends I’m not suicidal and not depressed or I don’t think I am. I seriously don’t know anymore.
BUT some I feel like I don’t deserve MY life. My friends all my friends are so hard working and so so smart while I’m over here with ADHD and dyslexic and I struggle with the simplest of things sometimes. I’m lazy and I know I have nothing to be sad over because everyone around me went though so much . all I’ve been through is being yelled at as a young kid by my parents. but that was because they didn’t know I had ADHD or dyslexia and they try so goddamn hard for me .
I’m so annoying and so freaking stupid that it upsets me to know others have to deal with me. I ramble and ramble and ramble and can’t keep my fucking thoughts straight at all and I feel so so bad for those who have to deal with me .
Also I feel like I need to apologize for the grammar errors and the run on sentences.
my parents fight or they don’t call it fighting but they “ bicker” so loudly it puts the fight or flight response in me . it makes me feel like I need to do something to keep my mom and dad happy. My parents tell me I’m smart and bright and kind and I feel like they say it just because they’re my parents.
which is another thing people Basically say I have a bubbly and bright and kind and passionate personality but I just feel like it’s a nice way to say I’m stubborn and a busybody .
sorry if this is basically nothing important I just need to let out some stem.
i kinda just want someone to tell me I’m making a big deal out of nothing if that makes sense. Because I feel like I’m making a huge deal over nothing And it drives me insane.