i don't mean it figuratively. i mean literally. literal ZERO. NULL. even in some classes in school when i was probably like 8 i never had idea what to draw. i could imagine and try to recreate something i saw. places, buildings, other drawings, etc. i could write recreating some specific style or essays on different topics.
but if there was something that would have to be done in a manner, where it comes from inside, from me? as in "draw something", "write a story", "try to create a melody", "take a picture" - nothing. no idea. absolute zero. literal endless void. absolutely nothing inside.
for all it's worth, my whole life i felt like i don't have any actual personality. just a formless blob changing in a manner to fit the enviroment im in at specific moment. might be somehow related.