My ex-gf broke up with me about 25 days now. She planned a birthday 2 hour car trip where we spent a night passionately and the next day exploring. That was probably some kr the happiest memories ive had in my life. The next day after work she drove over to mine to talk and debrief about our day. After half an hour of chatting, teasing, having fun, she dropped the bombshell on me that her immigration agent said chances of her staying in the country are bleak and her visa expires in 6 months. She said its best if we breakup now. Im ashamed to admit but i begged her to stay. She told me she was still trying to get PR and maybe if things resolved we could try again.
I knew clinging onto that is a terrible idea and moving on was a much better choice. I told her i loved her one final time and to get home safe over text. From there ive been focusing on myself for the past 25 days. Ocasionally i would go to her profile to see her story highlights and just see her happy face. But last week she hid her stories from me which got me so sad. Today i cracked and checked to see her story through 3rd party sites. She posted a mirror selfieon her story where she looked happy and captioned that she intends to live 1 more year in this country and go back home.
Im just so incredibly sad right now. Even though i told myself I wouldnt hold onto false hope. I did. I reflected so much on the relationship and was so ready to be a better partner if she sorted things out. Buy her better flowers, make better effort to plan dates, show her new experiences, be a better listener. But now i feel so empty, so unlucky. So alone. I miss her so much and am fighting with all my effort to not text her. Shes already moved on so I dont want to undo her healing but damn i wanna see her so bad. I gues i loved her a whole lot more than she loved me. I really do fall too easily.