Like the title says was diagnosed with autism and not really sure what to do with my life I'm unfit for work apparently and when I've tried in the past it hasn't gone well I volunteer at a country park but it's only really one day I've looked into other volunteering opportunities but most require some ability to talk (I can't speak in groups and can barely speak one on one)
As far as friends and family go my family will mostly just ignore me unless I ask for a lift and considering my feelings about them that doesn't bother me too much but for friends I only have one friend someone whose also autistic and barely able to speak they also volunteer but outside of that we barely see each other usually cos we can't really manage it support groups for autistic adults seems to be nonexistent in my area
So really I'm not sure what the point of my life is anymore which yes sounds suicidal but cos my dumb ass failing in multiple attempts which lead to me losing the best friend I had I can safely say I probably won't be going down that route again so now my life is volunteering once a week and nothing else ig