I am blue, he is orange. Note: I do NOT have his birth time so his houses are inaccurate (used 12pm as default). We are not able to discuss or pursue anything due to him being married and haven’t (and will NOT) crossed the line beyond a lot of loaded eye contact, some loaded interactions, running away from each other as much as we feasibly can while working together, and sometimes failing to not interact — albeit no touching or naming the thing. Am I crazy to think though that this was more than just a physical attraction and ego boost/validation for him? This has been so annoying to carry and part of me wants to know that it was likely he had any real feelings towards me. If I had some sense that it was more than just lust or an ego boost, i’d be able to stop being so burdened by this.
If he does or did have feelings, what are they like or rooted in?