TW loss- 3 days post c section and need help
Last year I had a baby with CDH and CDLS she passed away at 2 months old. 2 months later I found out I was pregnant again it was terrifying. I just gave birth 3 days ago via c section to a healthy baby. I feel like something is wrong. Honestly a lot is going on physically so I’m just wondering if maybe it’s just my emotions or if my body is trying to tell me something. The day before my surgery I woke up with a cough and a cold no fever so the next day they continued with the surgery. After the surgery I was released after one night and sent home with my baby. I have been having horrible back pain whenever I stand up, my normal incision pain, coughing from being sick, intense bouts of gas pain, I feel nauseous at some times and last night I had my haemorrhoid burst. I feel like my body can’t take anymore I’m barely sleeping because I’m so anxious about my baby. I sleep for maybe one hour or hour and a half max in between midnight feeds. I just went to bed and I woke up an hour later with this horrible feeling of dread and like something was wrong. I’m scared honestly my last c section was not this complicated I was only dealing with my incision pain and nothing else. I’m at the point where I’m just crying all the time because of my emotions but now I just woke up with this horrible feeling like something was wrong with me. It was just a gut feeling nothing had changed but I’m terrified. Has anyone had similar issues or feelings or can shed light. Please I really need help and advice.
My husband is amazing and supporting me like crazy but I feel so bad for relying on him so much I feel like I need to be doing more. We just bought a house and he is still finishing up moving which I haven’t been able to help with and he’s beyond stressed out and now he has to worry about me and our child. I feel like a failure like I’m useless.