i've been diagnosed with anorexia & arfid for seven years now and have been in and out of treatment since. for a bit over a year now, i have been in this maintenance phase (physically), where i only eat the same foods every day, i know my body is still not in a healthy place, and i struggle with compulsive exercise quite badly. i am a senior in high school and i am graduating next month, and i have already been accepted into & put down a deposit to go to college. for the past few months, i have been telling myself that i will restore my weight & recover in time for college, but so far i've made little progress.
i just want someone to be realistic with me. am i being stupid even expecting to be okay in college? if i really worked at it, COULD i be okay enough by late august to go? is anyone else in college or has been in the past while also struggling with an ed & how did you manage it? im extremely worried, but i am already graduating high school a year late due to the amount of school i missed while in treatment, so i dont want to just take a gap year.