u/AdExternal6332

Why is it just me that is suffering while people around me are chilling. I never really made friends or anything in school . I just used to study all the time and wanted to become rich . But life was never on my side . Even after I did so much hardwork in school what did I get ? Depression . I went through depression in 11th and 12th and that ruined everything for me . My perfect plan of cracking jee and getting into a good college right after 12th got destroyed. Now I am just hopeless. All the sacrifices I made in school were all useless.

My sister on the other hand was an average student who studied one day before the exam and made plenty of friends. She enjoyed her life to the fullest and now she is in college with no future plan but she has a rich boyfriend so her life is set because she is very happy ( I am happy for her too) . Same goes for her friend who is doing the same course and she has an officer boyfriend. I am not saying boyfriends is all one needs and I am not even interested in these things. you do need a career but what I see is they never bothered to get good marks nor a good college and now are going to enjoy all the wealth that someone like me dreams of.

I just feel sad why is life so brutal to me and atleast pay me for my hardwork instead of leaving me here with no friends no social life and no future.

Wasted my one month of drop year and now I am just full of regrets and I fear the thought of solving problems. Can't talk to my parents about this either and I am an online dropper. Got really bad score this year so I won't get anything with that .

Please don't make fun or anything just help me out if you can . I am only aiming for jee mains . Will it be a mistake if I continue my drop year .

Whenever I think of joining a private college instead of dropping the thought of not giving jee a fair chance comes to my mind and I always think that I can do it because I was a good student ( don't know what's happening now) .

I am too stressed and hopeless right now

Please drop your best advice that would save my drop year and make it worth

I am not following a particular batch for my online drop . I am following specific teachers instead like skm sir , abj sir , rahul sir and tk sir . Should I do their class homework and dpp or should I do pyq from mathango book .

Currently I feel doing both together isn't doable but if one should do that then I will stretch my study hours to make it work . Mains only

Would really appreciate your help 🙏🙏

Is pragyaan batch of competishun enough for jee mains along with pyq and mathango test series