i feel so stupid venting on here but basically the title has been the question that bugged me most these past few years.
for context: i have had acne on my face for the past few years and it seems to be hormonal.
tried so many products, diy masks, treatments… nothing worked.
i have been trying to cover it up with makeup, probably not the best idea, but i just can’t get over people seeing my bare face. i never ever let anybody see it…even i myself can’t look at myself in the mirror when i take off my makeup.
i feel so much shame for myself. i haven’t been comfortable with going out anymore or trying to date anyone, out of fear that once people see me barefaced, they would think less of me.
sometimes i‘m like: the universe put me to a test to see how far im willing to love myself even if circumstances like acne make it harder for me to do so.
and sometimes i wanna give up the fight and resort to any idea that lingers on the internet. and then get fed up that everybody seems to work it out but me.
Now, after this rant, im seeking some kind of advice here - i don’t know if i want help regarding this issue or any words that might help but im just helpless.
i don’t wanna take a hormonal pill, cause i have read crazy stories about acne becoming worse or gaining weight, but then i do think about trying it out of desperation (and i have endometriosis so technically i have to lol)
or baby botox? i have read that it helps reducing tallow production
u see, im out of ideas haha