u/Acrobatic_Win8473

My heart and mind long for you, I shouldn't though.

I know you're no good for me.

I've accepted that you never loved me, love is patient and slow to anger love is gentle not chaos..

Nevertheless, you seem to creep into my heart and call it a soul tie at this point...

My mind is telling me one thing but my soul says another, I know we must stay apart!

I'm not safe with you!

You give me the heebie jeebies !!

But also the butterflies... Make that make sense ?!?!

I tell myself this shall pass... Time will heal me and keeping my sanity matters more to me then revisiting old chapters...

Nevertheless it still hurts.

The void I been feeling is exhausting, I hadn't realized that it's been almost a year since we parted ways.

The flashbacks are intense

We had our very lows and our very highs.

I see you in different people. In music. In visions, dreams, or in instances ; nightmares.

I can't feel anything , I wish I had the privacy to heal but I don't have the luxury for that at the moment..

Life doesn't slow down, not for one second.

Battling mental health isn't helping either .. I want to be fixed so badly.