I'm pansexual, with a preference for men, and a femboy. My parents know I like boys, but they only think I'm bisexual. I never told them, they found out I had a boyfriend. I never told them that I wanted to dress up more feminine in fear about how they'd react. They're very transphobic, and I doubt they'd think any differently about femboys. Literally trying to stop me from being friends with someone because they're gender fluid. I've been wanting to finally start dressing the way I want to, but I have no real way to get the clothes myself. And even if I could, I'm terrified of them finding it. I'd really like to just come out to them, but even if I did, they'd probably think I need a mental hospital, and they certainly wouldn't buy me any clothing.
I'm sorry, I know I'm rambling, and this probably breaks the no depressing posts rule, but this is genuinely taking a toll on my mental health. Do y'all have any advice at all?