You know that feeling right before you start to tear up?
(Warning, mentions of disordered eating as a trauma response in second paragraph)
So, I’m not sure if this is my BPD or my Bipolar or something else but for the entire day so far I feel like I’ve been on the verge of crying. Like that feeling RIGHT before your eyes start to tear up, that has just been all day and I have no clue why. Maybe it’s the come down from my high stress and high energy week what with working with far too energetic kids and my birthday having been on Wednesday and going to visit my mother 2 hours away last Sunday.
I feel like there’s this pressure inside me just waiting to burst. It’s making me antsy and pseudo-anxious (which is then causing real anxiety) and feel like I’m 2 seconds away from sobbing at any given moment. I have a trauma response to stress that ends up with me not being able to eat, like the thought of it genuinely makes me nauseous and I even have to grit my teeth just to get through safe foods when it happens and it’s partially activating now and I can only sort of guess why since the stress I’ve been feeling now doesn’t quite feel the same as the other times it’s happened. That may be because I’ve been too busy to actually analyze it but I digress.
Has anyone else experienced this prolonged feeling of being on the verge of tearing up? Do you know any ways to soothe it?