I feel lost
I am about to type an essay here so good luck to anyone who decides to read it
I am sick of being the way I am. I am tired all the time. I am sad and unmotivated. I don’t feel happy and I don’t enjoy things like I used to. (Yes I do have major depressive disorder and am medicated and go to a therapist and psychiatrist, we’re working on it) when I was in college I was the happiest I had ever been. Then something really hard happen and it knocked me down. And then as I was just starting to get back up, after so much work and effort, my world exploded again. And then again for good measure. I remember standing there talking to a friend going saying, “wow, surely things can’t get any worse.” I was wrong though. I think things are worse right now. I want to feel like myself again. I don’t want do feel like this anymore. I used to do body building, running, hiking, I cooked and kept my house clean, I took care of my body, watched my diet and drank enough water. I didn’t drink alcohol. I don’t know where to go from here, but at this point I’m guessing it can only go up. I hope one day I’ll be posting in this group sharing my journey and be able to love myself again.