I mess up again. I relapsed again and deposited 440 dollar into online casino. That totalled up 2.6k this month. I feel so sick. I knew that i needed the money yet i burned it all. Negative saving again this month. This year totalled up to 19k damage.
Im so sick of myself
I was 5 days clean, it was hard. Then the online site texted me and gave me some free credit. I withdrawn it. Redeposited and profitted around 205 ringgit. I got bored and relapsed. Down 1800 ringgit. I feel so awful of myself and disappointed of myself.
For three months i deposited 30k ringgit already. Tell me how do i stop myself from gambling?
I installed gamban but on iphone its too easy to uninstall it