Microdosing to reach "Baseline"
Whenever I microdose psilocybini tend to think of the word BASELINE.... Because I don't think it fixes my problems or happens to be a miracle medicine.
I think it helps align me to baseline hormones, emotions and thinking. I think we live in a very distracted, stressful and addictive world/environment/society.
Mushrooms help me want to drink less when I used to drown in social anxiety as a late bloomer at parties.
Mushrooms help me have a healthier relationship with food instead of eating my emotions and loneliness.
Mushrooms help me feel safe and relaxed, yawning extensively as though I had hiccups when normally I have to focus on not holding my breath or tensing upmy shoulders from stress.
It brings me back to a sense of self that recognizes that I am not my behaviors or my coping mechanisms, I have a bit more agency over myself and I'm less agitated or sensitive in the week that follows.
Is it possible to live without mushrooms? Yes
Would I want to? No
Microdosing mushrooms is the only real experience I have with Psilocybin so I can't speak to the benefits of macrodoses.
However the version of myself that is microdosing is the most honest version of myself and I can only hope to keep this guy around. Because I lost him many years ago. And so has the people who knew him