7 MONTHS...FOR 7 MONTHS I'VE BEEN ASKING FOR CLARITY. YOU SAY THINGS THAT ARE VERY LOVING AND SOLE TOUCHING, THINGS LIKE HOW I MAKE YOU FEEL WHOLE.
YOUR TOUCH IS FEELING LIKE NO OTHER, THE WAY OUR BODIES JUST MELT INTO EACHOTHER BEOMING 1.
THE NEXT MOMENT YOU ARE GHOSTING ME AND SAY THINGS LIKE YOU ONLY GHOST BECAUSE YOU WANT ME TO COME OVER AND SHOW UP PHYSICALLY.
PUSHING ME AWAY AND SPEAKING NEGATIVELY ABOUT ME TO OTHERS CREATING A CHARACTER THAT IS SO FAR FROM THE TRUTH.
STATING YOU'VE KICKED ME OUT OR THAT WE ARENT TALKING. THINGS THAT HAD NEVER EVEN HAPPENED AND WAS NEVER A CONVERSATION OR EVENT.
YOU GET CRUEL AND START DEGRADING, NAME CALLING AND SAYING HURTFUL THINGS.
YOU THEN TELL ME HOW YOU DONT CARE AND HAVE NEVER GAVE A FCUK.
I GAVE YOU ME ALL, I WANTED NOBODYBELSE BUT YOU EVEN GIVEN THE CIRCUMSTANCES. I WAS ALWSYS THERE FOR YOU ON THE GOOD DAYS AND THE BAD... I STAYED.
I HAVE NEVER ALLOWED MYSELF TO BE SO DISRESPECTED IN MY LIFE BUT I KEPT TELLING MYSELF IT WAS THE ILLNESS, NOT THE TRUE YOU.
I WILL NO LONGER ALLOW MYSELF TO SUBMIT TO SUCH TREATMENT.
I DONT REGRET ANY OF THE TIME OR CARE I DEDICATED AS WHEN I LOVE, I ONLY LOVE WITH INTENT AND TRUE FEELINGS FROM MY HEART.
I WISH YOU HADN'T HAD SUCH A DRASTIC SHIFT OF CHARACTER. WHEN WE FIRST ME YOU MADE ME FEEL IN WAYS I HAD ONLY DREAMED OF.
NOW I FEEL LIKE A NOBODY, LIKE ALL MY EFFORTS, GRACE, AND CARE WERE TAKEN FOR GRANTED AND FORGOTTEN COMPLETLY.
I CAN NO LONGER HELP YOU WITHOUT LOSING MYSELF AND THAT....THAT IS HEARTBREAKING.