Food freedom did not take away food noise…
As my journey with Zepbound continues, I find myself at an inflection point with some of the people I follow who are in the anti-diet, fat activist, ED world.
I find myself angry as I still hear some of them speak about how food freedom “should” have given me freedom from food noise and how a GLP one medication isn’t the solution. Something about it makes me feel some shame and it just feels off.
It’s the same messaging I have received over the last two decade being in recovery and doing intuitive eating. Continuing to have the, “are you sure you’ve brought in all the foods? Are you sure you put weight loss on the back burner?”, when I kept talking about how my hunger, obsessive thoughts and planning around food never changed. No matter how much I tried, no matter how much food freedom I was doing, I still had food noise.
One of the women I follow, is also in eating disorder recovery, BED, which was also my diagnoses and talks about that the people who still have food noise just clearly don’t have food freedom. I just don’t know how to make sense of it all. It feels shaming and condescending to hear someone say I didn’t try enough when I diligently worked on bringing in all the damn food, eating all the food, not going back on diets and doing all the things… to hear that messaging again just makes me feel at a crossroads. It makes me feel sick. And it makes me feel like I am losing a community resource that I so love.
I guess at the core of it, it makes me feel like some of these people are saying I didn’t work hard enough and I should have worked harder. Isn’t that what some of this community has always wanted, fat not being seen as a moral issue or failure… but here they are saying a similar message. It’s the dissonance that seems peculiar to me. Help me out. What am I seeing, what am I missing? Am I hearing this correctly?
And I’m sorry if this message was very jumbled, I can’t even make sense of all of it and what I’m feeling.