My family is talking badly about me after the hysterectomy.
To give you some context, I'm a 22-year-old woman who had to sue my health insurance company to get a court order to access a total hysterectomy that had already been authorized. Anyway, I'm allergic to most painkillers and was diagnosed with adenomyosis at the beginning of last year, but even with a recent diagnosis, I spent years of my life in constant pain and bleeding while I couldn't even take a simple painkiller without it making things worse. It's so infuriating because people are acting as if I'm going through organ removal, excruciating pain, and a slow recovery simply because I want to, not because I NEEDED it to improve my quality of life. It's so irritating to see people pretending to care about my well-being when I know that if I had children now or even later, I would be judged to hell. It's unbelievable how a woman's worth still revolves around how beautiful and young she is and how many children she can have. Screw it all. I can't even eat hamburgers now, and I love eating junk food, and now I'm bloated and have stitches on my stomach that hurt a lot, and my belly button is awful, seriously, it's really ugly, and I don't even know if it will go back to normal, and it seems like none of this matters because all that matters is that I have children I don't want and that I wouldn't receive help if I did.