I had gotten 99.5+ %ile. Though having 3 years of workex, being a GEM and my past profile(8/9/7) caught up to me. Did not get any PGP calls from BLACKI. I just had 2 specialisation calls and my best call was FMS.
These past 2 weeks have been extremely mentally draining, received both FMS and B BA news the same day and they are virtually rejects (non convertible waitlist). And today got K Fin results which was the same as well.
I'm not writing this to gain any sympathy, I just have a lot on my mind right now and didn't know how else to express it.
I left my job last year to pursue this whole MBA Shenanigans and I can't help but think right now if that was the right decision or not. There were a lot of personal commitments that my parents had to put on hold because I wanted to go ahead with this and I couldn't even convert a good enough college to show for the same.
Everything around me just feels like it's falling apart. I know this is not the be all and end all but I'm still just processing everything. People around me getting converts while pursuing their jobs, getting into their dream colleges while I'm just idling my time away doing fuckall.
This whole process has really put my self confidence and belief in capability in jeopardy. I feel like a complete failure and that I'm not worth it. More than anything, I feel like I let down my parents, who were supportive of the decision I took. Eventhough they might not say anything negative, moving forward I feel like I'll be extremely hesitant to take such sacrifices.
I was wondering if I'm the only one who feels this way, who threw a good life away to pursue something and not succeed.
End of rant.
TLDR - Gave up a stable job and couldn't help with family commitments. Didn't get into any of the tier-1 colleges. I didn't achieve what I set out to do making me doubt myself and feel like I failed myself and the people who believed in me.