Testimony
For most of my life I was doing things my own way, searching for knowledge for the truth to our reality, I been down many rabbit holes and many times I thought I knew the answer/truth to reality. All the answers were wrong. I had been depressed full of anxiety and had feelings of wanting to die much of my life. A few months ago I was in one of my lowest points. I was under the sheets wanting to die again. It had been so bad I thought about dying several times a day. I cried and I cried for God. Jesus please save me. I felt God's presence and love. That's when I knew Jesus was the answer. Then I decided the next day and I threw out my weed bags that I had just bought 2 ounces of weed, I was a heavy weed smoker, I smoked all day and I threw out my SSRI medication. I wanted to be sober for God.
[It was a gamble on my part to throw out my SSRI meds. It's very risky/dangerous to quit cold turkey don't do it consult a doctor]
I couldn't have Quit cold turkey without God. God helped me with the withdrawals. I was addicted to weed and I was numb in the heart from my Medication, I couldn't feel love on the SSRI. Now I'm sober.
A few weeks later after that, I heard God wants to heal/bless us. So I prayed to God.
I said something like "God if it is your will and your timing then I ask that you would please heal my right knee". Then I went to sleep right sfter.
The next morning I had woken up and remembered my prayer from the night before.
I had wrecked my knee from squatting years ago using the Smith machine at the gym and I couldn't squat much weight or run without it hurting and making a crunchy sound.
Anyways, I tested my knee in the next morning after prayer. I bent my knee and no pain or crunchy sound. I thought, God did you heal my knee?
Then I got up and did squats and still no pain. Then I sat down and bent it trying to listen for crunchy sounds and no sounds or pain. Then I said ok God if you healed my knee I'm going to stress test it, so I don't tell my mother too soon and find out it wasn't healed.
So I went out for a run up and down the trail, I never run and I almost felt sick from running but my knee it did not hurt and I could run fine. Then I went inside and did some more test. I squatted on my healed knee on one leg. Then I grabbed a moderately heavy chair above my head and did more squats and still no pain. I kept asking God did you really heal my knee? Then I continued my stress testing, I waited until.the next day to see if pain would creep up and nothing. Then I told my mother and to this day a few months later my healed right knee the one that was wrecked and crunchy is better/stronger than my left regular knee that didn't get hurt.
God has also blessed me in many ways. I realize now God has saved me multiple times and been there for me my whole life before I found faith in him. He has always looked out for me and he's looking out for you, you may not have realized it but he's saved you from going down certain paths without you realizing it.
God has saved my life that is the biggest Miracle. Glory to God. Thank you Jesus. Jesus is the answer. Jesus is the way the truth and the life.
I know the best thing in life we can study is God to build our relationship with him. Jesus wants a relationship with us. And we owe him everyrhing because he is God. I owe him everyrhing and everyrhing that I own is already his and I myself belong to him.
So... what we can do is help lead people who aren't saved and lead them to Jesus. Pray for those who aren't saved yet and pray for those who are struggling with their faith and backsliding. God needs us to fully surrender to him so he can work through us we must live by his will and trust his timing.
I believe Jesus is coming soon. And Jesus needs us to lead more people to him.
God bless you.